who am I?

Seriously who the fuck am I?
Im so lost in a sea of nothing. I want to quit everything and sit under a cold shower until I die.

I don't know who to turn to and where to go.. My friends, loves & family are intertwined into one sick mess. If I fuck up any one of them I fuck my life up, which I seem to have done.

Love has, once again turned me into a monster. A selfish, mean, rude monster.

I hate myself.

I really really hate myself.

ROLLER BOOGIE!

FTW ROLLER BOOGIE!

hahaha this is like where I want to be right now, roller domes are so 70's
loves it



what is my fascination with the 70's lately its disgusting and seedy
DO YOU RECOGNIZEEE A SEEDY 80'S MO WHEN U SEE ONE?
OHHH YEAH BOI I'LL SHOW YOU ;)



its what i live for haaaa

In this dream Im dancing right beside you.

What I'm currently loving;

Interstella 5555 is a feature-length Japanese animated musical film originally released on December 1, 2003. The film is the visual realization of Discovery, an album by Daft Punk. Each track from the album has been animated as an episode in the story of the abduction and rescue of an interstellar pop band. The film was produced by the creators of the Discovery album, along with Toei Animation, under the supervision of Leiji Matsumoto. The film has no dialogue and minimal sound effects.

Music list

1 "One More Time"
2 "Aerodynamic"
3 "Digital Love"
4 "Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger"
5 "Crescendolls"
6 "Nightvision"
7 "Superheroes"
8 "High Life"
9 "Something About Us"
10 "Voyager"
11 "Veridis Quo"
12 "Short Circuit"
13 "Face To Face"
14 "Too Long"

I love you if you managed to watch that whole thing

LoveInGeneral

Oh my god this weekend was the best weekend of my life :o
Im not even joking I had the best time!

Saturday i went to a wedding and thoroughly enjoyed it
then I went to amps only to find out my friend nearly got stabbed by some cock so we left, dropped, took someone home & partied at ambar ;)
dirtiest people, best music & atmosphere

Mitchy, Mitch D AKA cutie gorgeous princess & myself stayed up til around 9 that morning talking, I also got into a shnappy mood and whipped out the camera. They didnt seem to mind XD
Its not the most glamorous thing you'll ever see but I love these two and its important I remember good times! I never get snaps when Im out!

This is my boyfriend
looking dopey ;)

These two are amazing boys XD

Then Sunday I got about 3 hours sleep and got ready for Nevereverland
Best venue, we walked up this grassy hill and I was expecting a big field, but instead I saw this and I was amazed.

Cut Copy was deff the highlight of the night for me
They sounded so clean and really really beautiful.
I love Cut Copy
ahhh my life (L)

I have some photos on my phone but I was pingin pretty hard and I really dont look very good :/
We also got a shirt with "D is for Disco E is for dancing"
I am in love with it even if its mitches and I look fat in it ;)
hahaha


thats not the design on the shirt but still
Go Gang Bang ;)

Hell happy
In love
Wanting every good moment to last a lifetime
lets hope one does :)

xoxoxox love you alllll

Fuck Yeah

Best Maafucken pictures I've seen in a long time!

I want new extensions
A special someone said she would buy me some. Gosh I love my best friend a millionnnnn!!
So this weekend is going to be amazingg
Shell and Lanna just popped round to borrow an ID coz.. well it was rather complicated. We got to talking and chyea pretty sure im going to amps 2moro, will be the first time in a longgggg time! Going to a wedding beforehand. Dont want to, but going to anyways ;)
Nevereverland on Sunday. Thats going to be a riot! Charlie does believe shes going to jump, I get so excited when I think about it ;)
wearing those tights, but not those topssss
wearing my loose grey one, its actually my myspace picture, mmm classy ;)

Going to Kaskade aswell
defffzzz
already got the tickets for me and mitch, going to be a fucking magical night hey!
goodvibezzzz aswell!

god life is so good lately!

peace and love to everyone
Im sooo happy ^^

xoxoxox

Stole a Kiss Through Your Golden Locks

look at the kitten lol

Hello World!
Oh man just as I wrote that my stepdad came in with a little ramican full of apple pie and cream! yum, lucky me!
Ohhhh life is so so jolly
would you like to see why?

Sure you would ;)




YESSS THATSSSS NEVEREVERLAND TICKETS!
Mitch bought me one as a christmas present, gosh im in soooo deep with that boy ^^
Crushin like craaaazy! We went to HAL today and I picked him out a gorgeous pair of kicks! They're adidas HighTops and the model was actually designed in 1981, god they're beautiful. All white and freshhhhh, with little bits of silver. If I was a boy the things I would wear *frothhh*
I couldnt find a picture but when I get them off layby I will defffff make him model them hahaha!

Mannnn just finished the apple pie, so so good!
So Im a little bit impatient lately, I bought a pair of American Apparel Shiny tights off their website.. Still havnt recieved my package and its been a week
Should I be getting nervousssss?!?!

Next on my list of things to buy is strappy gladiatorrr heels, because I already have the sweetest little pair of black steve madden gladzzzzz. Makes me so excited to be alive. Bahahaa people are probably like 'what is wrong with that girl?!'

Im gna leave you now. Sorry about my last blog, customers get me down sometimes. Hell gotta keep that wall up infront of them, I figured it out, act like you care, dont listen to a word they say. LOVE YOU COLESSSS

Hates not a dying breed tonight

I FUCKING HATE MEN WHO ABUSE YOUNG GIRLS BECAUSE THEY THINK WE HAVE ATTITUDE PROBLEMS
IM GOING TO CUT YOU OUT A NEW SMILE YOU DIRTY, GRUMPY OLD FUCK.
YOUR FUCKED, I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU.
HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE A SASKIA SCORNED.


G'nite.

Dead Cat

ps;
I ran over a dead cat today. I laughed so hard because I swirved trying to miss it and went over it completely.. Oh man..
Catya couldn't stop laughing.
Im a sicko.

Turkey Hands

Does anyone eat turkeys at christmas anymore?
Lol I found that on Vice.

Im actually looking through Andy Uprocks Gallery, I think its his site for Mooks, im not sure if its his or Mooks. Gosh, just so so unsure!
Andys got something good going right now
plastic cups;

Ohhh are you enjoying the playlist?
I thought, hmmm as you read I think you would like some easy listening!
I'm into a lot of dance as well, but I'd prefer you guys to not have your ears bleeding as you read this.

I feel the need to tell you all that the pill is making my boobs and butt absolutely huge, Im almost ready to say no to it hey. My skin is horrible, as is my hair :/
Im going to look disgusting for Stereosonic!
By the way, whos going?
I dont know if you need a blogger account to comment these posts, but I've had 190 or so profile views since I got this blog.. kind of know your lurking...
Leave me some love, lovers

This is what I plan to do now.

weekends together

The past two weekends have been kind of amazing!

I met my boyfriends bestfriend and he was probably the 3rd nicest guy I have ever talked to!
My boyfriend is perfect, I cannot even begin to explain how happy I am! We've been a little bit naughty lately, spending most of our time wasted in some club or at someones house coming down and feeling sorry for ourselves, but its alllllll good fun!
I never realized how much time we waste being angry or sad or just unhappy. Theres always a reason behind it. It can always be fixed or helped! HELP YOURSELF. I can't believe how much the world changes when you decide you want to leave that pessimistic person you were behind you and break out of your shell.

my hair looks kinda funny in this pic, I wish my camera had its flash.

So yeah theres lots to tell. The two dresses, no. I cant even begin to explain how sad I am about the whole situation. I cant wear them, they just dont suit me at allllll. I feel awkward and fat in them bothhh, maybe one day i'll starve myself and things will look brighter, but not for now. For now im happy being in love and fat ahahaha!

"you left a lovestain on my heart"

Im thinking of moving out soon, Im ready now, I have my licence and im going to study, things might get tough, but I want to rough it out, I want to experience new things, I want to feel something instead of being bored and comfy!

I dont care where I am, as long as I have someone close to my heart with me, to share this crazy experience.

You can find that artist here

Im hoping you're all still enjoying my blogs
I love you for reading this, Im sorry I toss those words around a lot but lately I have a lot of love.
Until next time

xx

FAKEBLOOD

NEW HURRR


DRESSES OFF LAYBY

will post pictures
they're both lushhh

colour me beautiful

MY NEW FAVOURITE ARTIST!!




yosuke ueno
do it

It's you

This week has been a drag! A frackin draaag!
Im just ready for the weekend, and not because I'm actually going out, just so I can relax and take some time for myself! Ranting a little, but I dont actually care if your tuna tastes funny or if theres mold in your strawberries. And no, I won't give you a refund and I won't be nice to you because you're spitting in my face! Hahaa, ohhh a day in the life of a checkout chick.
Oh and no, I'm not some dumb bitch that can't understand what your saying because your salary is higher than mine! Im leaving Coles to study graphic design at tafe, and I plan on doing shit BIGGER THAN BIG!! So don't expect to see me there much after Feb.

On a lighter note, ONLY $175 to pay off!! YESSIR I'm so close to having my dream dresses! I can taste it! This weekend is a noshoww, but next weekend, I swear to god Im going to have a very very fucking messy couple of nights. I want vomit on my foot, and slightly in my hair, and I want mascara on my cheeks. I want a shoe to go missing

maybe maybe

hahahaha im going to leave you with this awesome 60's french magazine that aparently just ripped the shit out of people
check out the covers, slightly scary!

yuck!

Move For Me, I'll Move For You

So this weekend was eventful! It was actually the best! I didn't completely fuck myself over like I usually do! Oh wow feeling quite fresh. Saturday I worked 8:30 til 5:30, was actually quite fast and very cruisy. Went to the Queens with Cat on Saturday night, had a couple of beers and some free wedges! Was amazing, this guy was like serving us and we were so cruisy about it, I gave him a $20 and he came back with 2 $10's and was like "my shout guys, have a great night hey!"
Man I love nice people!

Went into the city today after a good 13 hours of sleep, was quite amazing! The weather was just beautiful! Thought about paying off some of that layby.. Never got around to it :|
Ahaaaa you know how it is when you have money and you want to buy LOTSSSS of magazines and fake tan?
Well I got the new Frankie and the new RUSSH so yeah Im pretty happy with that. Havnt read them yet coz I just got back from picking Mitch up from the train station, I love how cruisy he is about just chilling and not always having the attention on him. Complete opposites! Yet we work so well ahahaha!

Todays sky was waaaay prettier than Fridays gorgeous sunset!
Let me show you what I mean
My photos get sharpened and I enhance the colours ever so slightly, I never use photoshop :)




Love you all my faithful followers
xxx

Up, Up & Away!

So today was eventful :/

Not really, thats mostly a big lie I made up in my little head. That actually reminded me of mean girls.. "Thats why her hair is so big, its full of secrets!"
So the issue today is that there is no issue! Not to say it was great, it was just really boring! It went so quickly, I think that had something to do with the nescafe sachets and take away coffee mugs I keep buying.. And sipping on every time I get a chance. Nescafe is disgusting, but so am I so its actually A-Okay! Oh and the fact that I've been getting under 6 hours of sleep for the past 4 days could also have something to do with it. Gah the things I do for my boyfriend.. Thats a lie I was really lazy and sat on myspace last night. I made him watch family guy best of on youtube and suchhh, it was pretty great.
Hmm back to today.
When I got home it was still light and I was totally up for sitting outside with the animals and enjoying everything mother nature had to offer me ^^
I was taking a drag and I sat back into a banana chair, it was LOVELY! The sky that is, I cant remember the last time I really looked up into the sky and appreciated it this much! Like woah! Then I decided to whip my camera out ahahaha!
have a looksie what I caught!

neat! loves it!
got smoke all in my hair ahahahaha

Well thats all

G'nite xoxox

hahaha toesss